I have a life-long love of nature and journeying to otherworlds and this first manifested in caring for horses at a local riding school and reading mythic literature and fantasy.

During my childhood, as an undiagnosed autistic kid who was a little chubby, I was bullied. This led to me developing an eating disorder which began with binge eating then led to dietary restriction combined with drinking to self-medicate my anxiety.

I went to college and university, where I studied for a Philosophy Degree. During this period, when I was eating little, drinking heavily and taking a lot of drugs, I had my first initiatory experiences. Without a context, I feared I was going mad. Whilst studying for my MA in European Philosophy, I discovered Nietzsche’s writings on the Greek Gods and began to question whether there were Gods in Britain too. This led me through Paganism and Druidry to Brythonic Polytheism* and shamanism.

In 2012, when I was struggling with suicidal ideation, I met Vindos (Gwyn ap Nudd) and realised my initiatory visions had been of His realm, Annwn, ‘Very Deep’, the Otherworld. He saved my life and gave me meaning and purpose. I served a seven year apprenticeship to Gwyn as an awenydd, ‘person inspired’, combining research and shamanic journeying to reimagine His myths and developed a practice rooted in the land and traditions of Britain. Afterwards, I dedicated myself to Gwyn for life.

Practicing core shamanism with the Way of the Buzzard, I developed strong relationships with my power animals and gained in depth experience of working with animal spirit guides, spirit teachers, tree and plant allies, land spirits, and ancestors.

Following my late autism diagnosis, I realised much of my anxiety comes from sensory and information overload. I began to overcome unhealthy habits of binge drinking, restricting and over-exercising when I started strength training at a gym.

Founding the Monastery of Annwn I lived as a nun for three years as Sister Patience. I entered a spiritual marriage with Gwyn and developed a monastic discipline I still live by.

In 2023, I entered mentorship with shamanic practitioner and embodied relational therapist, Jayne Johnson. Meditation, breathwork, shamanic work and embodiment techniques have led to me developing a better relationship with my body and learning to regulate my nervous system. In 2024, I began a shamanic apprenticeship with Jayne. This has been deeply transformative as I have come to know and heal my own wounds.

I have volunteered and worked in conservation and ecology and continue to volunteer in Greencroft Valley. I tend a garden where I enjoy growing small green things.

*Brythonic Polytheism is the worship of the Old Gods of Britain.